I know it seems like I say this all the time, but can you believe I’m coming down with yet ANOTHER cold? Or maybe it’s the same cold I’ve had for a month and it just won’t leave. Either way, it’s annoying and bugging me that I can’t get rid of it. I’d really like a few days where I just plain feel good again!
The chiropractor told me yesterday that my little spill on the ice actually sprained my neck. Of all things I need, a sprained neck is just NOT one of them. Sigh. So, he adjusted me yesterday and I went home to get ready for my yoga class. I will admit, I really, really didn’t want to go, but I forced myself and was glad that I did it. Of course, I am paying for it big time this morning. My back is SO sore that I could barely get out of bed. Everything just plain hurts. It’s hard to tell if it’s from the fall or if the yoga got to me. The class was fantastic and I was sweating like a monster, but I am one sore, sore woman today. This complimentary care stuff is enough to kill me.
The mail-order pharmacy called yesterday to confirm that they were shipping my meds overnight and to give me the price. It still kills me that the co-pay alone is over $500. I’ve said it once before, but I can’t imagine having to pay for the meds out of pocket without insurance. I know I’m griping about having to pay 20%, and don’t think that I’m not grateful, but man, infertility is EXPENSIVE.
I had the realization this morning while making E’s breakfast that I doubt there’s ever going to be a point where we just stop trying. If none of this works, I have a feeling we’ll just keep going and going. How else can you explain couples that try for eight, nine, ten years? They must get to the same point. I have such mixed emotions about starting this next cycle. Part of me is still really scared about the ‘what ifs’ again and part of me just feels like it’s going to work. I’m trying not to focus too much on the final outcome and just take the journey one step at a time.
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Oh, well, that just stinks! Colds are never fun. :( I hope you feel better soon.
Thank God for insurance! That is crazy how much money the meds are. Wow!
This may be prying, so just ignore me if you want . . .but I'm curious to know if you've let yourself envision having a newborn (or two!) by this time next year? (October, yes?) I know you have mixed emotions about this cycle, but I too feel strongly that it's going to be a "lucky" cycle and it's so exciting to think about it all!!!!!
Feel better soon! :)
Actually, I've been thinking about it more and more. What it's gonig to be like giving birth again, what it's going to be like having E as a big brother, balancing two (or more!) kids. I can't wait to breastfeed again, clean tiny baby toes, sleep at bizarre hours, and just have a brand new life again. It's amazing how much you miss about a newborn when you haven't had one in four years!
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