Life marches on.

I started taking the Femara again on Tuesday. Just like last month, no side-effects as of right now, but I expect that to change tomorrow. I’ll probably get a migraine by the end of the day so I have purposely kept my night open so I can get to bed early if need be.

It always amazes me how normal life can be outside while inside you’re going through the worst situations. I know that life marches on even while everything else is falling apart, but it just makes no sense on how this infertility stuff fits into my life. It’s always there. The thought of having another baby is always in my mind during the day. I think about or should I say I feel it 24 hours a day. It’s insane how deeply it invades your soul, especially when it’s something you’ve had once but can’t attain again.

And, as I said, in the meantime life marches on. A co-worker gave her notice yesterday. Now that I have my Masters, I could officially move into her position. In fact, my boss came to me yesterday and said that she thinks I should apply for it. I’d be stupid not to, so I will probably throw my hat in the ring. I was chatting with my co-worker today and we were talking about the difference in benefits between our jobs. She gets 4 weeks vacation. That alone is enough to entice anyone, isn’t it? In the meantime, I’ve found what I think would be a fantastic job for me at the main branch of our local public library, as a Program Coordinator. Now, it’s not a librarian job, but it combines two of my career choices: libraries and events. So, once again, I’d be stupid not to apply. Especially since the starting pay range is between $10K and $20K more than I make right now. And they don’t even require a Masters degree and it’s only two miles from my house, so I’d be able to say good-bye to the 90 minute daily commute. And then there’s the possibility that I wouldn’t get either job. And that wouldn’t be so bad, since I already like my job, am used to doing it and am planning on moving sooner rather than later. At this point, I just have to wait and see where the chips fall. It’s nice to have some options these days.