I was a complete lump on a log last night. I had all these ambitions to start my yoga and I ended up doing one load of laundry and plopping on the couch and watching 'Jon & Kate plus 8'. Bad, bad idea. If you've never seen the show, it's about a husband and wife that underwent fertility treatments to have their children. The first time they had twins; the second time they had SIX. Yes, six babies. It was like a drug: I knew it was going to mess me up, but I couldn't stop. And of course, as soon as it was over I started crying and thinking "God, please, I just want ONE more baby. You gave them six... I just want one." Not a great way to end the night.
It hit me as I was walking up to bed, repeating over and over "God, please, please make this work. I really want just one more baby" that I need to start changing the "I wish I could get pregnant" into "I WILL get pregnant." That's what I need to concentrate on. Yes, I'm going to have crappy, bad, pity-me days. But those days aren't the majority and I know that this is eventually going to work. I will get pregnant again. Granted, I don't know when or how long it's going to take or even how we'll get there, but I just know it's going to work. I know it. I WILL get pregnant again.
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That's exactly what I watched last night! Too funny. Yeah, a bit overwhelming, and I don't know how in the world they manage. I was telling my best friend about the show and said: It was like God made her to have that many kids and know how to do it! Just like God has made you ready to have at least one more baby. Yep, you WILL get pregnant again.
I'm glad the chiro appt went well yesterday. You go back today? Hope it goes well.
And don't sweat not doing your yoga last night. You'll get to it!
I also watch Jon and Kate. It will happen for you too Heather!
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