Ahhh... the glow of a post-beta phone call is always so lovely. Even if it comes with an asterisk. I'm still nervous about tomorrow's test, but for now I'm just reveling in the fact that, for now, I’m pregnant. And the fact that it was medically confirmed is even more pleasing.
R, on the other hand, is completely freaking out that I’ve told anyone the good news. He thinks that we shouldn’t tell anybody until we have confirmation and then even after that, he thinks we should wait for a few months. While I agree to a certain extent, it’s not that easy in our situation. Certain people already know that we’re undergoing IVF treatments and therefore, they knew when the blood test was scheduled for. So when those people called to ask “Did you get the results?” I wasn’t going to lie to them. R wasn’t happy about that. He said I should just say “I don’t know yet.” So, we got into an argument about it. Yes, an actual argument. Not exactly what I needed right now. But then again, as he explained later, he’s feeling particularly sensitive about it right now. Me, I’m just happy to have some good news. Finally. And that’s what I’m concentrating on right now. Because even if this baby doesn’t have the strength to hang on, something actually happened this cycle. Something actually implanted, even if it was for a brief time. And that’s a HUGE improvement over the last cycle. That, above anything else in this world, gives me hope. Real hope.
So, today I’m existing in Beta-limbo. I’m really hopeful about it, but I also have my eyes wide open. I know the dangers that lie ahead. I’m not blind but I’m hopeful. Actually, I’m overjoyed that something finally happened. Now I just have to pray that this baby (or babies) have the strength to hold on.
Hold on little one. Hold on.
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I understand his stress. DH would probably be the same way. People just handle pressure differently, kwim?
But anyway, I am still very excited, hopeful, and happy for you. Just praying for really strong numbers tomorrow.
Have you been able to get into Betabase today? I think your dpo would be slightly different since with IVF it's counted as days post transfer, right? That always confused me. But it's probably splitting hairs at this point. I can. not. wait. to hear your numbers tomorrow. Will they send the bloodwork stat so you can get the results sooner?
No, they don't send anything stat. Unfortunately. All of the bloodwork is done at the RE's office and then sent to the lab at the hospital across the street. Then they only return phone calls between 1:00pm and 4:00pm once they get the results.
I finally got onto Betabase.info.
My dates are actually counted from the day of retrieval, since that's the official day of fertilization. So as of yesterday I was 15dpo (which is the same as 12dp3dt). So, the numbers are still a little low for 15dpo, but not out of range. Still, as long as they double, I'll feel much better!
I came here to read today and was hoping. I read the great news! I'm praying that your numbers double. Sometimes knowing too much isn't a good thing. I hope those numbers more than double and/or the low number right now mean nothing. Many prayers for you.
I love how happy and pregnant you sound! :)
Praying hard for some great numbers tomorrow!
I can understand how R feels, but I know that I like for people to know so that you get all the prayers and good thoughts you can get, ya know?
So once you get your numbers back on Friday, how soon will do they an u/s?
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