Lining them up.

I went for the monthly ultrasound this morning and as of right now I have two follicles, one on the left and one on the right. They were both around 16mm, which is smaller than last month. I wonder if that's because the ultrasound was done one day earlier than last month. Who knows. It was strange to think that I ovluated from both ovaries this month; normally my body picks one side and sticks to it. I won't even speculate if that fact is going to give me more of a chance right now. I refuse to speculate about anything anymore. I'm wrong too many times.

I got a call from the nurse a few minutes ago. I think my nurse is still on vacation, which is unsettling to me. I hate not having contact with the person that I'm comfortable with. Still, she told me that I should trigger tonight and the IUI will be on Friday morning. The ironic part was sitting here, trying to decide what time to make the appointment. I kept thinking "Oh god. Is one hour going to make a big difference? Am I going to miss a window because I made the appointment for 11:00am instead of 9:30am?" It's crazy how much this sort of this will weigh on my mind. I guess it's just another part of the infertility rollercoaster.

As much as I complain about R and his antics, I have to be realistic and give him credit where it's due. Thank god he thought to ask the nurse about giving a frozen sample this month. I don't know if I would have thought about it once my mind cleared up from the disappointment of the failed cycle. If we had just hoped for the timing to work out, we would have missed it by two days. He left for Montreal this morning and won't be back until Saturday night; the office only does IUIs in the morning so that would have cancelled this month entirely. Clearer heads prevail once again.

I've been busy polishing my resume and writing cover letters for those two positions at the local library. I checked the library's website this morning and discovered that the Children's librarian position that I was hoping for was only being offered to current employees meaning that they were only going to consider internal candidates. I was disappointed but I figured it was more of an incentive for me to apply for the Program Coordinator position. Imagine my surprise when I get back from lunch and I get an e-mail asking me to come in for an interview for the position! I was so excited, especially since the website said internal candidates only. I'm wondering if maybe they haven't gotten a good response yet or if they're just fielding as many applications as possible. They're advertising for five librarian positions, so maybe they're just going to get me in there to see if I might fit somewhere else. You never can tell where these things might end up.

So, trigger tonight, IUI on Friday, job interviews next week. Life is getting back to its crazy pace. Gee, what did I ever do when I was in school?