Just another day in paradise!

I’m sure your not surprised, but not much has changed around here over the past few days. Well, little things have changed, so I guess that’s why I’m even bothering to post. School is now officially over in three, count them, THREE weeks. And true to form, I haven’t started working on any of the final projects yet. Oy. This is going to be a hectic final three weeks. I really have no idea how I’m going to get any of this done, but as you know, it will eventually get done. Just three weeks left. And one comp exam to go.

I went for my monthly ritual progesterone blood test this morning. So now I’m waiting for the results. I’m certain that they’ll come back with the usual ‘Yes, you’ve ovulated!’ results. I wish that was enough consolation right now, but it’s not. I’m supposed to go for my beta next Friday, but I’m not looking forward to that blood test at all. See, that test will be on 13DPO and I normally don’t start spotting until 14DPO. So, having my blood work done to confirm that I’m just not pregnant again is going to be such a nice little slap in the face. Hence my dread.

But, just in case you think I’ve lost all hope, I had this sudden realization last night while driving home. I don’t know where it came from or what it means, but I suddenly had this thought of “It could have worked this month.” Now, I’m not saying that I think it did, but I’ve had these lightning moments before. They come out of nowhere and literally hit me like a flash of lightning. Sometimes they’re right, sometimes not, but it was really strange to get one about this particular subject since I haven’t had a good feeling about the IUI this month. So now I’m not sure what to think. I’m back in limbo-land. And feeling pretty damn nauseous while I’m there.

And, as I'm writing this, I get the phone call from the nurse. Turns out that I did ovulate, as we knew I would. But the real news is that at six days post-ovulation my progesterone level is at 25.1. Holy COW. Now I’m starting to get nervous. The highest my levels have ever gotten was 16. I did some research (come on, are you really that surprised?) and found that normal levels for days 1DPO to 14DPO are between 9 and 28; normal levels for a first trimester pregnancy are between 9 and 47. Now, since I’m only six days past ovulation, this number could be high because the IUI did work or it could be high because progesterone levels usually climb until the body gets the ‘no fertilized egg’ signal and then it drops. I could go around and around on this one for hours, but I won’t. I guess we’ll just have to wait and see what develops. This is maddening, isn’t it???