Shhh… they’re listening

I think my right ovary was upset that I called it lazy yesterday. In the last 24 hours, four more follicles have appeared on the right and we’re now at seven total on the right ovary and a whopping 11 on the left ovary with three more biding their time. That makes the grand total right now is 18, with an additional three measuring less than 10mm. So it’s entirely possible that I’ll reach 21 follicles, not the 12 I was thinking about. Maybe my dyslexic mind swapped the numbers and thought 21 instead of 12.

I’ve been trying not to read too much into any of this right now, but I’m starting to get a little excited about it. 21 follicles is a good number. If we could have at least half of them fertilize, I would be ecstatic. I’m trying to ignore the little worries and fears that keep popping up in my head: what if they’re all empty? Can that even happen??? What if none of them fertilize? What if… god, I can’t even think it. This will work. It WILL work.

I’ve been taking the advice of all the books I read (before I instituted the No-IVF books ban, of course) and I’ve been pampering myself as much as possible. I went out and got a new haircut, my nails polished and I even bought two new pairs of shoes with the refund money that Rick got when the dry cleaner caught my skirt on fire. One of these pairs is a sassy little red pair that I cannot wait to wear. I’ve never owned a pair of red shoes before. I’m feeling almost, dare I say, girly. Oh dear. If I start spending more than my usual three minutes on my hair, someone please snap me out of it.